Straight from Eeka's blog.

2009-08-20T18:47:00.000+08:00

Moved, again.

Link/Relink Miiieeeezxzx!

2009-08-19T19:23:00.003+08:00

My legs and hands are cold.

My hair is dry, my lips too.

My tummy is complaining that she's hungry.

I'm home alone.

Alone = No food.

I wanted to go back to sleep but I have to go out at 10pm.

Im gonna go PARTAAAAYYY~ chey NOT.

HAHAHHAH

Im gonna help Iqah with 'something' (Its a surprise for someone)

Well, actually that someone is not invited to my blog.

So ya, its a surprise for Mamat.

Lol.

I think Im gonna make some soup now.

Why cant most people just come here and send me food when I tell them Im hungry?

Just like S when he sent us pizzas yesterday.

2009-08-10T02:27:00.006+08:00

Im so sleepy but somehow I just need to update the blog.

I miss blogging, much. ):

0508/

Sister's 18th birthday!

Im too lazy to transfer her surprise party pictures from the comp to this laptop.

So yeah. Haha, happy birthday again!

Go read her blog if you wanna kepo lah k?

0608/

Happy Birthday Iqah~~

One big birthday card (which I know Mamat cannot give you punye) for you! <3

0708/

Town with the girlsss. Did a very random shopping.

Zeee zeeee zeeeeeee! <3

0908/ National Day.

Was supposed to meet a group of friends but unfortunately I cant walk all alone with the crowds all the way to Clarke Quay. So, me and Iqah met up with Syaf & friends right after work.

And bumped into in and fiq! :D

The girls were super extra sweet yesterday.

And now, I really wanna go sleep cause I really cant stand anything anymore.

p.s should I throw away my phone? No, seriously.

2009-08-04T15:45:00.002+08:00

Is it true that Im not the only one?
Is it true that you're just having fun with my heart?

Im gonna boogeyy and party tonight cause its sister's birthday!

2009-07-24T18:04:00.004+08:00

*Jumps around * I cant stop watching the video :D Heehe.

2009-07-23T23:41:00.005+08:00

Its been bout few months now.
Aint seen or heard from you.
How do you stay awake knowing all I do is think of you?

2009-07-21T17:04:00.006+08:00

I had one hell of a crazy week.

001 Meet up with Fauzi + Hakim was (Y) <33

002 Oral was shitty I must say. Huh fish? Seriously, what were they thinking?

003 Had Macs for supper right in the living room with everyone. It was sucha nice moment.

004 Some jerk just had to spoil my mood on Thursday.

005 Mama and Ayahji left for KL, like AGAIN. -,- Of course I didn’t follow this time.

006 Stayed home on Friday with Adek. -Watched TV, waited for Abg dean, sneaked in her present from Abg dean and the birthday cake. 7eleven-ed. Bought loads of candies and chips. When the clock strike 12am, we Surprised her!. Yeaaa but obviously it was just the three of us tapi rase macam sepuloh orang.

007 Saturday was just so crazier. The news, the ‘w’ environment, the strangers who came up to us and wanted to take pictures (???) andd the sleepover.

008 But at least, did some catching up at Haji Lane with Qid and her friend, Aida. & met the home boys.

009 Did shopping with the girls on Sunday.

And that’s basically about it. Im not sure if Im gonna update more often but I know I will update at least once a week. Im gonna occupy myself with books, food, bed and DVDs. I just don’t wanna care anymore.

2009-07-13T00:31:00.005+08:00

11 May
Cousin's wedding. The weird thing is I have never seen him before.

Saturday evening and late night with my fly girls and home boys.

One of my boys' wallpaper (;

12 May

Sunday is family day!

Zooooooo! with Mama, sisters and their boyfriends.:D :D :D

Very tiring but very fun. All of us were like little kids.

Im not posting any pictures of the animals cause its like damn a lot.

Go on girl, I bet you don’t need me anymore right.
I wonder when will you actually realize who was the one who was there every single time for you, did everything for you, encourage you and a lot more.
I kept doing things to save our friendship but I kept receiving bullshits from you back every single time too.
I really don’t know why sometimes I am still nice to you.
Oh wait you know why? Because I fucking love you as my best friend and I don’t wanna see you get hurt.
Seriously babe, do you even care about my feelings?

& you felt bad? Did you even come up to me or all of us to apologise? Or even say hello?

2009-07-10T01:17:00.005+08:00

Today!

001 Bras basah.

002 Starbucks ; Finally, white chocolate frappucino!

003 Macs.

004 B.junction.

005 Tanah Merah.

Who needs boys when you've got lovely sisters? ( part ni je lovely, tak gaduh pe) :D heh.

& sometimes I really hope this blog isnt private cause I wish some people can really come across this blog and read my post.

But oh well, why should I even care?

They're just typical low life whores who think they're everything.

Might as well go sell your bloody self at lorong cause it seems to me like you're darn cheap. haa.

But omg, go do something with your eyebrows first k? Tsk tsk.

2009-07-08T20:47:00.002+08:00

Bloody hell Paris Jackson.
Made me teared like one idiot. )':

Right now, I need milk tea, more kinder buenos, waffles crisps, white chocolate frappe, brownies and lastly my one & only Ryan Sheckler.
Bring em to meeee (:
XOXOXOOOOOOOOOOO!
bye.

2009-07-03T05:04:00.012+08:00

I think we're getting closer again, just like last time.

(: (: (: <3

Anyway, I tried to be a little bit independent by studying alone.

It worked but for 2 days only. Other days ; failed.

But thank God, Fauzi & Zul came to the rescue. (:

Unfortunately, I didnt feel like studying today.

I was hungry, bored, having those 'sick feeling', sleepy, lazy, irritated, sad & excited.

Plus! Bloody hell Jj didnt even text or call the entire day.

Can you imagine that darn fucked up feeling?

I tried alot of stuffs to make me feel happy.

Like frying nuggets and corn sticks so I wont feel hungry anymore but it turned out soo oily. Yuck.

Tried eating loads of chocolates. Didnt help either.

Tried watching Skins or 90210 but the internet connection was like a sucktard.

I swear I tried everything. And now, the only thing that can make me feel better is blogging.

*Insert smiley face like some bitch here*

Okay so now I plan to go cook something again cause Im hungry but Ayah is gonna wake up soon.

He will sooo give me the wtf-is-my-daughter-doing-cooking-at-6am-in-the-morning face.

Its okay laa...

And today is gonna be Kill-Time-Day!

Thats right, Im gonna kill hell lots of time today.

First Im gonna kill time by delivering the girls' uniforms right at their doorstep!

Seriously, part mana nak dapat Eeka macam gini. ^^

And then Im gonna waste time by going 7eleven and waste money on junk foods.

Which after that Im gonna kill time eating the junk foods one by one.

And loads of other things.. HAHA.

Oh ya, I cant wait for weekends too cause I'll get to see my girls at work.

And on Sunday, I sooo wanna shop for stuffs that Im not too sure whether I need them or no.

Lastly, to favourite boy, Wan.

Sorry cause I think Im probably the last person to know you got infected.

Im sucha bad friend ): Still, Im glad you told me you're feeling a little bit better.

Fight it yeah? And be strong.

Dont worry, will keep praying for you before I go to bed alright?

Okay enough, Im gonna stop now cause I bet you dont wanna read more shits.

Wait, I dont think you guys will even read this. Oh well, for those who did, thank you.

Wow, 100% pure crap from me, Eeka Sheckler.

Xoxo, you know you love me!

2009-06-28T23:07:00.004+08:00

Last night was the most sexciting fun night ever. I dont know why but it really was.
Too many things all in one night. ^^
We shall do it again eh.

& Im irritated. Super duper irritated with some people right now.
These kind of people just kept coming and I dont understand why they just have to be this way.
For fcuk's sake just understand this situation I am in (!) I am not ready for anything.
Dont rush me. I hate it when you people start to rush things/skip steps.
Trust me, it wont work cause obviously I dont feel it.
The more you rush, the more I will avoid. Seriously.

2009-06-22T23:52:00.002+08:00

Its 12am! its 12ammm! :D

Happy birthday Herdawati Minachi Pigpork Telor!
You're 19 alreadyyyyy!
Yayyy. May god bless you with all the good things in life okay!
You're the best (;
I still cant stop smiling looking at this picture.
Everyone was kinda forced by me and zyk to the typical metraps and mynahs handsigns.
" saaaapppp! party people!" loooooool ah.

2009-06-22T15:37:00.007+08:00

Just gonna update the weekends cause I am just plain lazy to update about the weekdays.

Friday/
Mama drove me and kakak down to Bugis. Read(pt) my entry proof in the car.
And was damn upsettttttttttttttttt cause Adek and Eza got the same school.
While I have to go all the way down to springfield to take ALL my papers. -,-
I dont even know how to go there. Shit.
So, walked to Wan's workplace to meet him and collect Herda's birthday poster.
Trained back to Paris and met up with Herda Zyk Shikin Imran and Imran's friend.
Everyone was getting bored, so ran around and started shouting like mad people. (??? i know right)
Walked down to Pasir ris beach and had a small confession talk.
Thats when Imran's friend decided to fetch us and drove down to East coast where everyone was basically high on Macs, uno, truth & dare and loud music.
I sure did have fun on our way back home too. (:

Saturday/
Sentosa day! not for the beach party but for Herda's advance birthday celebration. (!!)
Played loads of games and ate loads of snacks.
I had fun, like seriously cause its been a long time since everyone get together.
And I guess everyone knows who are the real friends now. Oh well..

Theres more pictures of course. Unfortunately, for people like Zyk Khai and Farah, you all can buang korang nye camera k?

Sunday/
was one damn frustrating day. Thank god Fatyn saved me. ( insert hearts here HAHAHHA you know i know ah)
Talk and talk, till I got nothing else to say.
Went back home to change and met Ayah at Manhattan fish market @ Whitesands.
Had father's day dinner without Mama. Its like the second time she wasnt there to celebrate it.

How cute can this man get? (:

2009-06-15T10:06:00.003+08:00

Just got back from sleepover party at Fatyn's.

And Im gonna update a bit because the blog is d.e.a.d.

I got nothing to say about M'sia trip. Oh well, M'sia. -,-

Did nothing much. Just same old plain boring trip over again.

Someone, Anyone! pleaseeeeeeeeeeee just take me to Paris will you? ):

And my weekends was nice, just nice.

Like always, those people above and some other lot who are not in the pictures, basically made work a lot more fun and easy peasy. (:

Okay, I better go continue sleep before I start having wild negative thoughts which made me feel like killing myself

again.

2009-06-08T03:11:00.008+08:00

Im sleepy, very sleepy.

Just finished packing my stuffs but Im on the laptop now cause I promise the girls I'll upload the pics here now cause Im leaving in few hours time.

So, here you go.

Firstly,

Happy sweet sixteen to Fatyn again!

Dont worry, I'll pray every night to make sure your birthday wish come true. (:

Thats all. I wanna sleep.

Takecare swines!

2009-06-05T18:04:00.004+08:00

And I was bored, so I did this.

There is a sun on upper left hand corner cause they always brighten up my day, just like a sun.

There is green thing on top of Herda, I dont know why I put that. Just wanna make her look stupid cause she like to act like one sometimes.

There is a kiss on Faizal's cheeks. Just wanna give one kiss to him. MUAH!

I put a wig on Fad cause i dont know? Haha.

A mustache on Shikin cause she is a maknenek. They dont have anything that can make her look like one so I replaced it with a mustache.

I put a pink flower just below Sam cause she is so nice and deserves one flower from me.

( Watermelon day with you lah k one day )

I decided to paste something on favorite boy's face cause I just dont like to see his expressions when he talks sometimes. hee.

Zyk has a mustache and all on his face too cause sometimes he gives advices like a grandpa.

And those who are not in the picture, dont worry. Look below.

I've put something to represent each and every one of you.

Sister zea has that expression cause she always has this aku-chill expression.

Farah, oh well you know. Shes short and irritating.

Hasif is like that cause he's always carrying his helmet around.

Didie like aunty aunty.

Black has a very long face so yeah.

Acit is always like that. Loves to goofy around.

Bobo, i dont even know why I put that. Haha.

And Dan, is always damn irritating. and he's always 'correct'

And I love them. Alot. (:

2009-06-05T17:19:00.002+08:00

I've managed to watch all seasons and episodes of The hills last night.

And I soo can feel Lauren's feelings towards her friendship with Heidi.

Dear you,

I feel like as if there is space between the both of us.

Can you feel it too?

Or you dont care at all cause from what I see, you've been spending most of your time with A.

And you are happy arent you? But what about me? I am not.

I still cant believe you gave him chance for a meetup and all.

I remember clearly during that argument we had, you brought up about me and R.

You said after we broke up, now we're like totally happily ever after.

Why on earth would you say that when you know me and R is never okay after the break up?

You've got him, but I have no one except you.

For god's sake, you're my bestf and you were supposed to be there for me.

All Im trying to say is, I dont care if you wanna spend more time with him.

Though you said 'that day' would be the last day you both will see each other.

At least dont leave me out. What am I to you?

A friend only when you've got nowhere else to go?

A friend you go to only when you have problems with him?

But wait, after all those names he called you? After trying to make you and me go against F.A?

After saying your friends is a worthless bunch of people?

Why are you putting him ahead of me when I was the one who wiped every single tears that rolled down your cheeks. I was the one who stand up for you.

I did all that because I love you and I dont wanna see you get hurt again.

But why now? )':

I totally cant be bothered anymore.

But wait, I still care.

2009-06-04T16:34:00.002+08:00

Like finally after 16 years of living in S'pore,

Mama decided to bring us to Night Safari (!!!!)

Come on people, say weeee! :D

Hahaha.

Im sucha noob lah, I know. Have been to the Zoo and Bird Park before but not the Safari.

The last time I went to these places was like 12 or 10 years ago?

The place was alright. It was damn dark and Im not satisfied about that.

I wanna go to S'pore Zoo badly!

Someone take me there, please ): ):

And yeah, I dont think I'll be updating for awhile after this cause I'll be very busy with work on weekends.

And and, Mama said we will probably leave for Malaysia (again) on monday.

So ya, see you when I see you babies. ^^

2009-06-01T16:24:00.006+08:00

Fell in love with work even more for three days straight.

Especially when you have those people up there with you.

The not so good thing is that I gave study sessions a miss for work.

Damn. Gonna start back now. Taa!

2009-05-26T23:50:00.002+08:00

"Always be careful with what you asked for"

Im not sure if I regret.

I just need space. And time.

So leave me alone.

2009-05-25T17:18:00.002+08:00

Let me summarise what I did for the weekends.

Friday/

Mama left for Kl early in the morning with Mak Ani.

She didnt even woke us up to say goodbye, she only texted the four us saying

"bye bye mama dah gi" -,-

Can you imagine? Waking up to see you mom is not in her room and received a message like that?

So I woke up and baked some stuffs.

Pass em to Beely. And headed to east coast for Omar's chalet.

Unfortunately, on our way there something bad happened and I felt sorry for Fatyn.

Dont worry girl, hopefully the person will get her retribution.

Haha.

Surprisingly, Siti was there.

Talked for awhile and even took some pictures.

Overnight there because wanted to take care of Fatyn but after awhile everyone was busy popping or drinking. So I and Raudha couldnt stand it and left at 530.

Saturday/

Woke up at 12pm and dragged myself to work with Raudha.

Thank God they drove us there, so we managed to get some sleep in the lorry too.

Lol?

After work, went Lufee's house to meet all of them and stayed over his house.

I was dead bored because someone almost made me cry.

And almost broke his promise. So yeah..

I got nothing to say.

Sunday/

Was just a plain slacking with the birthday boy.

And surfers after that.

Right now, something is really bothering me.

In fact, has been bothering me since the past few days.

Im not too sure what I want. I feel so irritated.

Im tired of entertaining some people.

Because at the end of the day, none of them is the one I want.

I know who I want and Im pretty sure you should know who.

Thing is, its impossible and I cant even bring myself to call and ask how are you.

Perhaps, you people should give me space.

Cause for now, I need him.

You and only you )':

2009-05-20T05:29:00.003+08:00

I swear, I dont have insomnia.

Its because I just got back home.

This time round, I cant take it anymore.

Youre just not my sister and I really hate you, I really do.

I aint talking till you come apologising to me.

Cause its simply not my fault.

Im sick of you talking rudely to me.

Sick of you saying im the one who is rude.

Sick of you saying im not working hard enough.

Sick of you saying my friends are bullshits.

Sick of you thinking that I wont make it.

IM THE ONE WHO IS SIMPLY SICK OF YOUR ATTITUDE.

So fix yours before you wanna fix mine.

Thank God I still have life saviors.

Im so sorry for rejecting or not answering any calls. Or replying any text messages.

I feel so darn bad. I just realised I still have people who still care.

Well, from now on I wont care about what you wanna think about me anymore.

Im already working so hard, at least Im trying.

2009-05-18T07:29:00.002+08:00

I cant sleep again. ):

I dont have insomnia anymore, for sure.

So weird cause I put down the phone at 2.30 cause I was so sleepy.

6 hours later, still not asleep!

I just dont know why..

Okay, I know lah but i dont know.

I think I have too many things in mind.

And again, at times like this I just feel like taking (insert word) and drink it straight up.

wahh like understand.

But too bad I've already made a few vows not to do this and that this year.

I got a strong feeling Im gonna break one or two :/

Noo I cant, just keep praying and be strong Eeka. You cant break any.

And I really wonder why Mama just wont let me keep cats, not even one.

I want one badly. Just like the one I saw just now.

Its so fluffy and cute ): I want one!

I want a cat so I can tell my problems to it.

Gah! anyway note to self: Things to do today and not to miss out any:

001 Go medical checkup with mama. Thats if she wake me up later.

002 Meet the 3 minahs. Thats if Im not tired, but I do miss them.

003 Dont miss out any meals today like yesterday.

004 Dont forget to study. **

005 Check parcel status.

2009-05-17T17:46:00.005+08:00

Saturday was kjagfbauojvn.

Was supposed to have bandung day/date with raudha.

Unfortunately, some things just had to spoil our day.

Im late Im late Im late Im late. Bye!

2009-05-15T02:10:00.003+08:00

Im in a situation where I seriously dont know what to do.

Im the closest to her right now. And everyone in the house been bugging me to tell her to do what she is supposed to.

Thing is, what they told me to do will be a lie.

Seriously, I cant lie, especially to you.

I cant bear to tell you the truth either because Im scared it might hurt you.

I dont want you to think that we dont care about you girl.

But on the other hand, this has to end.

Till when my dear? What if it affects our parents' rship.

Oh well, am so excited now cause I'll be meeting this darling for study session later on. yipee?

2009-05-13T22:46:00.003+08:00

Since Im bored, might as well I layankan my Eefah darling and do this survey.

1. Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kiss?

- neck?

2. How do you feel when you wake up this morning?

- Felt tired. Talked to myself, " Malas nye nak bangun."

3. Who was the last person you took photo with?

- ShaShaSha Sharifah Fazillah.

4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?

- err..

5. Would you ever donate blood?

- why not?

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?

- yup, favourite boyy.

7. Do you want someone dead?

- alot ah actually. HAAHA.

8. What does your last message says?

- " Okay esai go. Aku call kau. Wan suay gina sakittau." HAHA FROM YAQIN.

9. What are you thinking right now?

- my damn whole lot of studies to catch up.

10. Do you wish someone to be with you right now?

- i dont think so, not at the moment.

11. What is the time you go to bed last night?

- jam 4 pagi.

12. Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?

- at lime's flea market. heh.

13. Is someone on your mind right now?

- he's always on my mind. <3

14. Who was the last person who texted you?

- read the answer to question 8.

15. Tag 10 random people to do this survey.

1. Nur Izza.

2. Herdawati.

3. Rizwan Othman.

4. Raudha Sa'adon.

5. Shikin Shabudin.

6. Sammy Chong.

7. Fafa Kassim.

8. Irah Ruslee.

9. Faizal.

10. Beely Azireal.

16. Who is no. 2 having relationship with?

- currently noone. yay

17. Is no. 3 a male or female?

- Male yo.

18. If no. 7 & no. 10 get together, would it be a good thing?

- hahaha, no i think.

19. What is no. 1 studying about?

- ai dee kay.

20. When was the last time you had a chat with them?

- erm few days back.

21. Is no. 4 single?

- yes she is! :D

22. Say something about no. 3.

- favourite-boy is just my favourite.

23. What do you think about no. 3 & no. 5 being together?

- shikin & wan?! dunia terbalik siolzxzx!

24. Descibe no. 9.

- he's adorable. and very pekak. *POSB!

25. What will you do if no. 6 & no. 7 fight?

- they always fight. but i think most of the time i will talk to sammy.

26. Do you like no. 8?

- yes i do. i miss her!

Aku malas nak tag orang. If you baca this then buat lah if you want to.

Hhahaha.

2009-05-11T18:17:00.003+08:00

Im so busy, I didnt even realised I havent been updating.

Cousin's here, so I've been spending time with her.

Watching tv, talking, eating, everything almost together.

Except, there are times I had to leave her for study sessions and work.

I dont even have the time to watch my favourite shows anymore.

And Mama's day was a nice one.

The day before went around to find a care bear for her.

And, the celebration was great.

Oh well, who doesnt love sitting down at a restaurant with the whole family, eating dinner together.

2009-05-05T19:36:00.002+08:00

At times like this, I just feel like killing myself.

If only I can back out from this O'levels.

If only they could refund me the fees.

But, my highest education would only be Nlevels then.

Fuckkk.

I hate to study. I cant study.

Im soooo stresssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss )':

I dont want to end up in Ite again.

I feel so uneasy there. ))))))))))))):::::::::::::::::::::::

If only Im a rich president's daughter or a young prince's wife.

I bet I dont even have to think about all this.

2009-05-04T14:35:00.004+08:00

My weekends were !!! shitty.

Saturday/

Firstly, Im attached.

You wont believe it.

I dont want to tell but I feel like I must.

With..........

Ryan Sheckler (!!!!!GAGAGAGAGAGA)

BUT! unfortunately, I opened my eyes only to find myself lying down on parents' bed.

Which simply means, it was only a dream you fucktard.

So, woke up and had to get ready.

Me and Afiq rushed to Peninsular hoping the tattoo shop was still open.

Ha, guess what? It was close for the day. -,-

So he was sad and happy at the same time cause he will get to go shopping.

But, after he went to try some tops at Wisma after that.

The tops were too big even it was size small. Double -,-

bad luck sia.

Walked down to far east to grab lunch and met up with the rest.

I was already tired waiting for Raudha and Fatyn.

They were already supposed to meet us when we found out they were inside far east for some reason.

So my blood was really boiling and I started scolding them.

Then, it got worse because me and Raudha started shouting at each other.

K, sumpah malu, public somemore. hhahhaha.

But it got better after that; bestfriends cant be mad at each other for long.

Then on the way home with Fatyn.

Some sickkk fking seriously sick guy followed us home with his bike.

At first we thought he was lost.

But no, because after Fatyn went up her block this sick guy parked his bike and followed me.

I started calling everyone but everyone didnt answer my call except for An.

And I think I sound funny when Im scared.

But Im safe now, heh cause the person wanted to get to know me but I told him I really need to get home. And I quickly walked away.

Thank God it was still early and there were still some people around my area.

Try imagine if it was really late.

I bet people couldnt even bother to entertain me or answer any of my calls.

And for a moment I thought he was gonna rape me or I was gonna die there.

Looooool ah eeeka.

Sunday/

Work was sumpah I dont know what to say.

Lucky thing Fatyn came last minute. Or else Im dead.

It was fking tiring. But worth it by end of the day.

Shopping for stuffs and books is a really good therapy ;)

Now, I really have to go cause I need to rush to Bras Basah.

2009-04-30T17:18:00.005+08:00

Went sentosa with sister the other day.

This time she didnt break her promise and luckily it didnt rain. :D

Now Im soooo tanned. :/

And I feel like killing Raudha and Fatyn today.

They were supposed to follow me to Aunt's house.

I had to collect uniforms for the girls and they both were supposed to try their uniform too.

I woke up as early as 930am for them but at last, both of them cant make it.

-,- grr!

So I went to accompany Aunt to compasspoint to get some groceries.

We had lunch together and had quite a long talk about our lives after that.

I wish I could stay a little longer cause she was all alone at home.

But I remember I have to bake muffins today.

Dont ask me why. I just wanna bake em.

But now, Im not even preparing my baking stuffs because Im stuck watching Ryan Sheckler's videos.

-,-

Weird, I know.

I dont know why I used to hate when the Boy spends most of his time skating.

But now, I find myself addicted to this pro-skater dude.

Ironic...

I sound so like a pyscho. Bye lah.

2009-04-26T20:00:00.002+08:00

Im so bored and while waiting for my gossipgirl to finish buffering,

which is taking so long, I might as well update some crap again.

So, hi.

I got nothing to update but I'll just type down what Im feeling now.

001

Sister switch off the fan for only 5minutes and I quickly told her to switch it on back cause its hot!

Even though it rained just now.

The weather is so not right these days.

Like what Faris said, S'pore lokek angin. -.- hahaha.

But hopefully it wont rain today cause Adek promise me that she will take me to Sentosa tomorrow ONLY if doesnt rain. ):

002

I miss ayu.

I think Im gonna text her later.

And I hope Raudha will really cheer up.

003

Yesterday was alright. It was stressful.

(No, not at uob but somewhere I cant say.)

They seem nice but I didnt entertain, though I .. dont know.

Maybe you should know that the whole entire time, you were in my head.

004

I havent bathe! And mama wants me to follow her to ikea nowww.

I need more scented candles for the room.

Bye now.

Hhaha. I hope you people enjoyed reading my 3-minute-super-merepek post again.

2009-04-25T02:42:00.003+08:00

I really cant sleep.

Because I wont stop thinking about it.

I dont wanna say.

But I was really saving my long-deep-kisses and never-letting-go-hugs for you.

And only you.

)':

2009-04-24T06:45:00.003+08:00

I know, I should be sleeping instead of blogging right now.

But I dont wanna sleep.

Not yet.

Oh! I went to meet Wan! Faizal! Shikin! Sam! and Farah! just now.

Im sooo happy. Missed them like oh so fking much.

and still missing them.

I know, I havent been spending much time with them.

I feel so bad. I dont know why.

And I just got back home. Soo late, I know.

Because I was really too damn scared to take the lift. -,- HAHA

And I read some stuffs about some girls just now.

I really seriously dont wanna be like that. I should really start studying carefully.

Cause ya, every study sessions I had, I tend to gossip alot instead of concentrating on my work.

Talking about studying, Im gonna make sure Herda really come study with me today.

If not.. hmph.

And sisters should start booking me to study with them too.

If not..

And should keep in mind that I must not sleep late these days.

If not... Hhah? Kay, stop.

Anddddd Im so tired to work this Saturday.

But Im broke already. Spent most of my money on.. food? wah.

And meeting Aunt is the most fun thing ever.

She will really brighten up your day.

Even though she can be quite annoying and really like to rush me.

Gah, still love her lah.

OKAY! YOU PEOPLE JUST WASTED 5MINUTES OF YOUR LIFE READING SOME CRAP POST OF MINE.

I SHOULD SLEEP NOW.

2009-04-23T03:49:00.013+08:00

Im so sleepy but for some reason I dont wish to sleep.

Because... Im scared.

So I went to eattt just now.

I was like one crazy girl.

I had to quickly get ready cause the person was already done when I was just done bathing.

So I went out with the hair not comb! (oh well, makes no difference if I comb it also)

And without wearing a watch!

Rushed to coffee bean after that to study with Fauzi.

We didnt really study, we were gosipping almost the entire time. haha.

And then rush back to meet some fucker cause he die die want to treat me watch movie.

And thanks eh Zai.

For choosing ghost movie instead of 17again. and! without telling me.

At last dia takut sendiri, pfft -,-

Afiq's surprise birthday pictures;

Ah! This is the cake that me and Raudha baked for Afiq. But I still think I did it alone cause Raudha left me halfway. ):

Have to admit, it wasnt that nice lah. heh sorry.

Then me and Fatyn realised our tanktops colour is the same as the icing colour. hahha.

Done.

I want to sleep now.

Kay........ maybe not because the bedroom scene(s) still stuck in my head.

Damn.

2009-04-22T17:00:00.000+08:00

oohwee! Mariah is online now.
But I cant upload the pictures now cause some idiot decided to come and rescue meeee.
Im going to go eattt eatt eattt eattt.
Im so happy! Bye!

I'll update again later.

2009-04-22T16:29:00.007+08:00

Im so fucking bored.
Thank God Kakak is in a good mood today and let me play her laptop when she left for work.
And now Im sooo damn hungry too.
Nobody's home, which simply means no food.
And when theres no food, I can go really crazy and lost my damn mood.

I've lost my mood to watch 17again online.

Lost my mood to watch Fast and furious with Zai.

Lost my mood to eat Famous Amos.

Lost my mood to even study.

No wait, I really need to study.

Anyways, since I'm using Kakak's lappy.

Here is some overdue pictures which I promised Syaf I will send her.

But since she's not online, just grab this later eh!

Muke penting eh fa!

Muke you dua pun chill eh.

OKAY. So, Afiq's birthday celebration pictures will be up soon once Mariah is online.

Nowwwww, I need to.. I still dont know what to do.

2009-04-21T00:34:00.006+08:00

Because I, no,

We worked so hard to come back & keep it going.

But some things just couldnt see us happy.

&I couldnt bear to let it affect you.

I couldnt even open my mouth to say anything else.

There wasnt any other choice but I know we did the right thing.

I love you. )':

because he've been the only thing thats true.

2009-04-17T00:55:00.002+08:00

I had sucha bad day.

Im so stress and I really dont know what to do.

I feel so crazy lying all around my bed for almost a day thinking about it.

Everything I did seems to be a failure?

Everytime I tried to help, you'll say its crap. why!

And then everytime if I just shout my mouth, you want me to say something or help you.

What exactly do you want?

You think you're the only one who's sick everytime you try to think of something?

Well Im sickkkkkkk too thinking about what to do, what not to AND what to say to you,

because you know what?????????????? I dont get what you wanttttttttttt.

And even if I tried to leave you alone, to give you space, I still couldnt.

Cause I couldnt bear to let you think and suffer all this by yourself.

We're supposed to do things together. Solve things together.

So why does it seem like you're running away from this problem

and why arent you sitting down and talking to me??????????

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Greaaaaatt.

Now I feel a lil better letting it out.

Sorry, because I had to. I dont know who to talk to.

Well actually I tried to, but I ended up talking in tears which cause the person not to understand a single shit coming out from my mouth.

And I still feel like shit right now cause Im so confused and having some confusing problems with Maine, Dom and Lufee.

NICEEEEEE! What a day!

2009-04-12T23:45:00.006+08:00

I havent been updating cause theeeeeee computeeeerr is down down down down. ):

And the only way i can update is by using either Adek's or Kakak's lappy.

Oh wait, I dont think kakak will even allow me to touch hers.

Anyways, too many shits happened.

Cant expect me to story everything here.

I'll just shorten it.

1) I lost something during my banana boat ride at M'sia )':

2) I think someone is taking advantage of my Ayahji's money.

3) I lost my new watch. In the house. (!!!f*ck!!)

4) I dont have the M'sia trip pictures took from our cam! Its G.O.N.E.

I transferred all the pictures to the computer and the next day I woke up, BAM! Magik~

5) Some sarcastic & sensitive issues/whatever shit. Ahh dont know lah.

6) Our sentosa outing was cancelled because it was raining ):

7) I miss favourite boy, Rizwan Othman.

8) The fucker just wont stop calling me. HA! like as if I'm gonna answer.

8) Some slut said nasty stuffs about someone.

Life sucks lah kan.

okay maybe not.

1)Eldest sister sudah upload the trip pics at her fb and tagged me in some of the photos.

To those who die die ask me to update the pictures at my blog,

you can still look at the pics at fb. But its from her cammy lah. Heh.

2)Everything is back to normal, like thank God!

3) I dont feel the favouriteboy/bestgirl thing anymore.

We're close friends, why arent you sharing everything with me?

I texted you the other day because I wanted to ask hows your life & stuffs.

And I didnt even know you were in the competition not till Ayeen replied me

and told me you were at backstage already ):

Whats wrong?

3)We still went out on Saturday, to town.

It was raining but I still had fun.

Though it was just slacking at starbucks and gossiping about this particular bitch.

Who thinks her life is more 'happening' than us. (Ya right, please look around you first.)

And who dared to talk to my own cousin about someone.

Firstly, I wonder if you really know him?

Secondly, so what?! I dont even care. I talk about boys all the time too.

Just shut up cause he's my boyfriend & not yours bitch!

2009-04-02T03:05:00.002+08:00

Okay! I’m done packing my stuffs.
My flight will be in 11hours time.
And I suddenly don’t feel like going. :/

PLEASE tell Raudha not to be sad!
Tell her I’m sorry I can’t be there for her for few days.
Tell her, I love her a lot and tell her not to cry.
Tell the rest I’m gonna miss them.
Lastly, please tell boyfriend that I love him, everyday, for me.

Raudha/Syaf/Iqah/Whoever using Fb, please help me feed and bathe my pet Lulu at Petsociety for me. I really love her.

(Dah lah, macam nak pergi bertahun-tahun. Baru berapa hari. SETAKAT AH EEKA)
Taa!

2009-03-31T22:39:00.002+08:00

All I need was just one call, my dear.
ONE CALL.
For three days straight you know, how can I not be mad at you.
Was it so hard? I thought you were just a phone call away.
Like, thanks?

But nevermind. I just wanna post this up.
Just so you know, I was really waiting for your phonecall.
Oh well, since you explain already. Then yaaa.
I still love you lah Herdawati-pigpork-nb-cb-always-a-pain-in-the-ass.

2009-03-30T09:06:00.002+08:00

Take it all or Leave me alone.

I will never be your stepping stone.

Im standing upright on my own.

2009-03-29T03:10:00.002+08:00

OH YA! Someone just told me he miss hanging out with me.
-.-

Or do you just miss spending all of my money?
Fucker.

2009-03-29T02:42:00.003+08:00

So, my Saturday was spent with the whole family.
And some other relatives too.
Had dinner with all of them and it was Ayahji’s treat.
(:

Then dropped by Mustaffa Centre to buy lots of snacks.
Went home straight and now, I have to go meet Raudha. I think.
Should I?

Oh, did you guys celebrate Earth day?
I know my Ayahji did.
I was getting ready for dinner when he stepped into my room and just switch off my light. I was blank for a minute.
And the next thing I knew, he went around the house happily and switched off almost all the lights.
Kalau boleh, semue dier nak switch off.
Loooooooooooooooool! How cute.

2009-03-28T08:01:00.000+08:00

" Dont worry, nothing can tear us apart.. "

The line went right through my ears! but guess what.

It was just a dream.

Again.

2009-03-27T12:09:00.002+08:00

Finally! The blog is done. (:
I'll still be using the xanga one but for now just link me.
So you happy now assholes?
I can link you people already and you guys can even tag me.
&I miss having a tagboard!

I still think the links are a little bit messy.
And the blog is too PINKY. Nevermind.
I’ll update more soon. I have to meet Ayu now.

P.s I really miss Sam. & Farah too.